wow this blog seems crowded.
replying to piggo:
well. in this situation when u so called don't mind piggoman(this name is seriously funny!)and that gay to still contact each other, when actually u really minded alot. instead of feeling uneasy and let this matter bothers u, maybe u should try to look on the bright side and trust piggoman more. trust him n believe in him that he's not like that. that gay likes him, that's the gay's problem. so as long as piggoman is straight(which i strongly believe!), i don't think the gay post a problem. Unless if ur love rival is a girl, then i can say it's perfectly alright if u feel intimidated? don't worry k. or in another case, tell him that his 'flirting' action with that gay really bothers u. tell him FIRMLY that u dun wan him to contact him anymore. as for that gay, he should know that he'll be putting u n his friendship at risk, since the day he decided to confess with piggoman already. if there's really awkward moments when u see him next time, i tink the feeling should come from him, and not you!! fellow lb.. am i right?? oh my.. i sound like some counsellor writing for magazine in those 'troubles corner'. wahaahaha!! don't worry, dear piggo!
wow! retard's busy woman! must stay strong ar! i miss lb too!! retard's right. maybe i should take up something to keep me busy.. tink gundu will agree with me. it's difficult, to ask me not to dwell on the past. when we dwell on something alot, maybe it really means that that something or somebody (ever) meant alot to us? i also know i'm silly to be like that. maybe i'd already been erased entirely in his mind and heart. maybe if he comes to know that i'm still not forgetting him, he'll laugh his head off?? sigh.. wth right? afterall this is the first time that a guy actually means something to me, the first time i got troubled with this kind of heart-breaking bgr problem, the first time i baked cookies for somebody,but he didn't tasted it at all... quite alot of first time. oh and yea,my first time and the one and only time when holding hands sent my heart thumping like mad. haha.
of course there were also pleasant and sweet memories we had. anyway it's already been 3 months. last week, i decided to write him a letter out of a sudden. i dunno why am i still thinking of this at this point of time, but yea, i wrote it. after that i found that i may be stupid, or sounds stupid to him if he received it. so i held back the letter and kept it in a box.(i have a box to keep all those stuffs related to him or given by him.) the contents include how i very much still want him to be my friend and not to lose contact because of some unhappiness that occured in our failed relationship.(sounds so fucking desperate rite??luckily i didn't send) as i said before, i always have that wierd feeling of wanting to cry,but it's not that overwhelming until to the extent that i'll cry. haha it's quite ironic that i've yet shed a single tear becos of him. heh heh.. proud of me?? not because i'm strong la, retard(i know retard will tink that's becos i'm strong)
so gundu, while u are forgetting ur him, i should forget mine too. and we shall forget them together. remember?? we are the *chub chubby chub chub* ! ok please explain to lb about our new slogan.WAHAHAHAHA! we should be contented with everything we have now~~
and oh ya, i've decided to pick up a musical instrument-guitar! i want to learn some music, if not i'm afraid i'll regret for life! anybody interested to join me?
aunty misses lb loads.
