hey lb. i had a problem to share with you people. not exactly a problem to solve, but i just need a listening ear=) recently, or rather, today, i realise i have some difficulties in handling issues among people. seriously before today, i'm not really aware that the world outside is so... full of lies and pretentious people. well i guess as we are growing up and experiencing new things, we are bound to face this kind of thing. what i thought i've done was right, was 'proven' wrong in the eyes of other people.
2 days ago, i was assigned a tuition duty. i was supposed to teach 2 sisters. actually i'm quite contented because of the rate. i'm able to get $350 in total for each month. i was told to teach each of them twice a week and each time, one n a half hr. i was also told to do something against my conscience. which is to tell the parent that i'm from some local uni if the parent is to ask me where i'm from. deep in my heart, i really do not want to do this kind of thing.
so yesterday i went for the first lessons for both sister which took me 3 hrs. the parent told me for the fact that now is the school holidays, i can come twice a week to their house, each time teaching both of the sisters together. but after school reopen, i have to separate them up, which means to come 1 week four times(2 times for each girl). furthermore, the parent requested for another day of tuition for her elder daughter. she say she'll pay me extra($100). however, i mustn't tell my agent. i guess she wants a cheaper rate, that's why she never tell the agent that she wants 3 times a week of tuition for her elder daughter in the first place. i was kind of stupid enough to agree with her terms, without considering further whether i have the time anot, to go to their house for up to 5 times a week!
after i went home, i realise i won't have the time.(ok this part is solely my fault) so i called up the parent and told her, i can only teach them together and not separately when school reopen, cos i won't have the time. after persisting my stand for a long time, she finally gave up and told me to choose between 1 girl to teach,and she'll find another tutor for another girl. i felt more than thankful as she suggested this solution. then, she asked me which girl i wish to teach. i told her something which i regretted for now.
cos her elder daughter is an em1 student. her command of english language is very powerful. really. i don't know why she needs tution. it was stressful to teach her. but of cos i didn't tell the parent all these. i told her i'm actually more confident in teaching the younger girl. i didn't want to lie to people about my qualification or standard. i merely told the mother truthfuly that my standard was not as great as her daughter when i was in primary six. she's the one who asked me to choose. of cos i'll choose the one i'm more confident in teaching with. and because of this, i was told off by my agent after the mother complaint to her. and for some reason, i'm suppose to teach that elder girl for another 3 times free of charge because of the blunder i've made, before a new tutor comes and teach her. meanwhile i'll teach the younger one as per normal.
you know when the agent was telling me off, i can't have my point a point to argue with her. she said my schedule can be further rescheduled and there's not a need to tell the parent about my 'low confidence in teaching p6em1'. because of this i was told that i've caused her to lose quite a number of customers. of cos, i had my point, which i'm not supposed to say out. i'm supposed to keep that extra-tuition-day matter from my agent. so apparently she didn't know that it's so difficult for me to reschedule as i have 5 days with them! what can i do? i can only apologise to her.
now i think i'm known as an irresponsible person in the eye of my agent, and a tutor with low standard in the eye of the parent. it's hard to be torn in between the two parties, really. it's all full of lies and deception. she kept on emphasising the words,"to be fair to everybody...... to be fair to everybody......." when she wanted to explain why i need to teach another 3 lessons for free of charge. do u think it's fair for me?? just because i'm being truthful and helpful by keeping secrets for both parties, i got all these from return. even my mother reprimanded me for not being eloquent enough. yes i admit i'm not good in words. i've to learn how to speak well to be pleasing enough to everybody. thanks for reading these craps. all these things i've encountered are really craps. =(
