I guess I'm the first one to read this. First and foremost, I sincerely wish you the best of luck in your exams, family life, school life, everything. Like you once said, God has put you in this position only to make you stronger. Continue persevering and I'm sure you'll be as 'tough' as Aunty or I one day, just kidding. Your predicament sounds dire, and I really hope you'll pull through it with flying colours.
I guess (not another 'I guess'!) that sometimes, our misunderstandings stem from your inability to explain yourself fully, which leaves both parties frustrated. In fact, sometimes you hardly even explain yourself. Like today, Aunty and I were kind of miffed at the 'last minute' cancellation - though you have explained yourself thoroughly and concisely through this post. :) Leaving the end frayed (unhemmed) kind of leads us to open conclusions, especially since we had no idea what was going on your side, like how your test was brought forward and you are less than 10% ready for your test, etc. I'm not pointing fingers at you or anything, but neither can you blame us for feeling agitated, you know?
I can't believe I have to say this out loud, but whenever you face any problem, please, feel free to confide in any one of us. No matter how 'stupid' or trivial the issue, we'll BE here with open arms and ears. I just hope you won't feel too embarrassed or self-conscious to spill your emotions to me...
I am not 'heartless' as some bitch* once described.
About your 'better' friends - I have never once said that. It's just that sometimes the things you do to and for them... Well actions speak louder than words? And however mean/evil you may think I am for reprimanding you - well I simply amplify what others think. But I'd like to think that our friendship is stronger than some silly little holiday, birthday card, lack of birthday card or lack of time. So what I can say is that I, or maybe we, are hurt by this but will probably find it in our hearts to overlook this haha.
I guess I may come off as harsh in doing so sometimes. Think about it, it's because I care about you and love you that I'm this way. Or else, I wouldn't give a shit if you were around or not. Honest. I think you know me well enough. On the other hand, I do not actually consider myself harsh. I guess Fierceness was built in me the day I was conceived. I simply express my opinions for your better judgment to agree or disagree, ruminate even haha! Besides, communication is key, isn't it? Someone needs to provide you with the feedback. God put me here to toughen you! hahaha. Let's just say, you're lucky you aren't an enemy or something...
Maybe something that might ease this would be to update us with your life/contact us once in awhile. Say once a week?? You could just have a chat with any of us. This could also save your sanity :D
LB means the world to me, you have no idea. What would life without LB mean to me? Nothing!!! I'd give my life for any one of you, and I mean this with my heart. LB are my friends, my (life) support system, keeps-me-grounded, raises-my-self-esteem somewhat, my home. Wow, it seems like I need you guys more than you need me haha. I love you so much, it can bring me to tears, just like how this post almost did. Retard, I know life is difficult for you now. We don't wish to pose as another stress factor.
On another note, I was hoping that you didn't forget that my bday is due next month and that we are supposed to have dinner on the Saturday 16th. I hope that all of you are free cos I want to bring you guys somewhere special (advanced booking required).
xoxo
