Friday, July 25, 2008
Seriously, I am quite shock reading your post. Did I not reply your messages always?? Does it happen everytime?? And, what you mean by i have no time for you guys. I put in time for you even though i am busy with school, work and family commitments. It may sound very unreasonable but then, I always try my best. It is true that I cant express myself most of the time. Sometimes, I get frustrated when I cant be angry and put my point across to people around me. But thats the way I am. Aint friends suppose to understand friends better?
Anyway, I had my test today. After all hard work, it doesnt appear to what it had to be. I still got more to go...
See you guys around...
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
hey mama,
i cant imagine if i'm the one who's in your shoe, i meant the tremendous stress you are experiencing now. however please don't feel like dying. you are strong and we all believe you can do it. learn some ways to destress. sometimes it's not wise to study 24/7 either, cos' you'll be tired physically and phsychologically. maybe all u need is to have a calm mind. because with a calm mind, then you'll remember what you've studied.
and, i really don't know if asking you out will stress you out further. i really hope not. how mad felt (before u posted this post), was how i (maybe wanjing) felt too. we actually discussed about this for quite a long time, as we can't seemed to understand why u were like that(not replying msges,can't seemed to go out with us, etc). as u didn't really explain yourself clearly. frankly speaking we thought u didn't really care and that ur other 'better' friends seemed to be better than us too. i want to be honest to you about how we actually felt, as true friends are not supposed to hide their feeelings with one another. of course, please don't blame yourself, feel guilty or 'partly disappointed'(haha!) with yourself. all these were just misunderstandings. now that we've almost cleared all these, i hope this incident will not affect our friendship. we are still like before=)
mad, i actually look up to your character. you are firm in your thoughts(except for the ability to abstain from eating, HAHA!), straightforward and most importantly, you are very real. to me, your straightforwardness is a virtue. that's because i know you, that you won't hurt lb. we are friends, for the fact that we embrace one another's good and bad points. i mean what we see in you may not be what others see in you. people who do not know you may think that u r insensitive, but certainly not to us.
so what i'm trying to say here is, if, i mean if, mad ever says something which may sounds hurtful to siti, hope siti won't put it to heart,cos she really don't mean any harm. and mad shouldn't feel guilty about saying something bad,as i know that there's a reason for her to say that.sometimes she's not stating only her thought. she may be the 'bad' person, by amplifying all our thoughts. it's getting rather confusing here.. wahaha.. hope i won't confuse u people. and if u do not understand me here, i'm just trying to explain for everybody to clear up the misunderstandings. we don't mean to hurt one another, in any way! get it?
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
I guess I'm the first one to read this. First and foremost, I sincerely wish you the best of luck in your exams, family life, school life, everything. Like you once said, God has put you in this position only to make you stronger. Continue persevering and I'm sure you'll be as 'tough' as Aunty or I one day, just kidding. Your predicament sounds dire, and I really hope you'll pull through it with flying colours.
I guess (not another 'I guess'!) that sometimes, our misunderstandings stem from your inability to explain yourself fully, which leaves both parties frustrated. In fact, sometimes you hardly even explain yourself. Like today, Aunty and I were kind of miffed at the 'last minute' cancellation - though you have explained yourself thoroughly and concisely through this post. :) Leaving the end frayed (unhemmed) kind of leads us to open conclusions, especially since we had no idea what was going on your side, like how your test was brought forward and you are less than 10% ready for your test, etc. I'm not pointing fingers at you or anything, but neither can you blame us for feeling agitated, you know?
I can't believe I have to say this out loud, but whenever you face any problem, please, feel free to confide in any one of us. No matter how 'stupid' or trivial the issue, we'll BE here with open arms and ears. I just hope you won't feel too embarrassed or self-conscious to spill your emotions to me...
I am not 'heartless' as some bitch* once described.
About your 'better' friends - I have never once said that. It's just that sometimes the things you do to and for them... Well actions speak louder than words? And however mean/evil you may think I am for reprimanding you - well I simply amplify what others think. But I'd like to think that our friendship is stronger than some silly little holiday, birthday card, lack of birthday card or lack of time. So what I can say is that I, or maybe we, are hurt by this but will probably find it in our hearts to overlook this haha.
I guess I may come off as harsh in doing so sometimes. Think about it, it's because I care about you and love you that I'm this way. Or else, I wouldn't give a shit if you were around or not. Honest. I think you know me well enough. On the other hand, I do not actually consider myself harsh. I guess Fierceness was built in me the day I was conceived. I simply express my opinions for your better judgment to agree or disagree, ruminate even haha! Besides, communication is key, isn't it? Someone needs to provide you with the feedback. God put me here to toughen you! hahaha. Let's just say, you're lucky you aren't an enemy or something...
Maybe something that might ease this would be to update us with your life/contact us once in awhile. Say once a week?? You could just have a chat with any of us. This could also save your sanity :D
LB means the world to me, you have no idea. What would life without LB mean to me? Nothing!!! I'd give my life for any one of you, and I mean this with my heart. LB are my friends, my (life) support system, keeps-me-grounded, raises-my-self-esteem somewhat, my home. Wow, it seems like I need you guys more than you need me haha. I love you so much, it can bring me to tears, just like how this post almost did. Retard, I know life is difficult for you now. We don't wish to pose as another stress factor.
On another note, I was hoping that you didn't forget that my bday is due next month and that we are supposed to have dinner on the Saturday 16th. I hope that all of you are free cos I want to bring you guys somewhere special (advanced booking required).
xoxo
Well, I really need to apologise to you girls because I cant go for dinner today. I was really caught up with things in school that was tooo heavy for me to take it. I received a news that my practical test is shifted one week in advance due to some minor reason. I really freaked out because I havent touch anything at all. Moreover, I had 2 more tests a day after this test which I havent went through yet. And to put things into disadvantage, my test this week is not over and I am not even 10 percent there. Seriously, I was at a great traumatic shock for a moment and i really couldnt take it. I felt like dying even. I cannot take stress well. However, after prayers and some calming down, I finally grabbed my soul back. I told myself, even if i sacrifise my sleep, I am going all out for it. As u know, I am not doing well right now, so I really need to back up. Please give me your blessings and pray for me okay, i think, i really need that in these times.
I also want to clarify somethings.... It is not that I do not want to go out with you gals but then sometimes, it is just that the time is not right, time where i have school commitments and family stuffs. But, I try my best to be there for all LB outings yea. And, btw, i dun often go out with alex. It is just that he is the kind that likes to sent friends home for no reason. So, dun ever think I put him above you gals hor. Actually, I cant remember when was the last time I saw him sia...
I love you gals very much. God knows what deep love is. Yes mad, i do have other good friends. But if you think they are better than you gals, i am sorry, they are not. I guessed I have found the perfect kind of girlfriends I want to be with all life. You guys just bring me to a new edge of life which makes me feel happy. Even if i feel sad, it felt that i want you guys to be with me, close. Just like today, everyone in my class saw me stressed out, but none of their consolation was effective.
Hope things goes fine.
Love you all.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
I was studying with mad today while she reminded me of a dream once.... Remember we were in the lift ?(whoever was there) Hahaha.... and it started to sway!!!! Hahaha, and samuel had to sacrifise himself as the bridge to transport us to the building frm the lift??? Then zawlin step his hand and he fell i dunno how many storey down!!! Hahahaha.... and when we go down to the first floor, we found mdm dead!!! Hahaha.... Such a dream man....
And remember the day we pranked call people??? The chinses restaurant orders and Renfred fans as well as the crazy indian women.... Remember? Remember??
Miss you gals
Friday, July 11, 2008
other t shirt design idea - 4 separate shirts
works effectively as an msn display pic too ;)
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Hate
To dream about hate, indicates repressed aggression and your fear of confrontations. On the other hand, you may be forcing your views and opinions onto others. Consider the symbolism of other elements in the dream to find out what is it that you really hate.
http://myjellybean.com/astrology/dream/h_dreams.htm
Sunday, July 06, 2008
font 1: heineken
font 2: pastas black
and my personal fav in american typewriter
which of the first 2 do you guys prefer??
i came up with more ideas
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
hi piggo, read jun 30 2008 dressing for your professor'r hours for tips on what to wear when you meet your prof! how succinct! haha. coedugly gives tips for dressing in school.
http://www.chictopia.com/user/blog/coedugly
works effectively as an msn display pic too ;)
